I am a Sahaja Yogi who took up Yuan-Chi Tai Chi Chuan 3.1/2 years ago. To me it made sense to do exercise that would complement what I have been doing in Meditation for some years now. Prior I was doing a lot of running and Judo and many other martial arts. These clearly were not the way and I experienced great frustration having done Judo since I was six and knowing that what we have inherited is not the gentle soft way that Judo was originally supposed to be.
There are two levels at my stage of progress that I wish to comment on:
The physical/Gross aspect:
The biggest blockage physically that I have always experienced is tension. This is now peeling away layer by layer. As part of the process I am becoming more aware of that tension and therefore more needful to be rid of it. However the step by step approach is the essential one as trying to achieve the goals prior to readiness will only create more tension. Physically I have noted other subtle changes such as once upon a time always feeling hot. This heat has now gone to the point where I now overcompensate to dress warmly. I have also become aware of the extensor muscles at the back of the neck continuously in a state of overwork and the head being at a point of unbalance thereby irritating this situation. Awareness is the biggest step to fixing the problem.
I do not go out of my way to stretch there is more flexibility. With
each new step physically I discover more movement internally and
The Subtle/internal aspects:
Throughout these past few years of practising Yuan-Chi Tai-Chi the subtleties of the internal and external have been revealing themselves in each new step. One particular experience is that of the power of Mother Earth actually coming up through the entire being and actually making a real connection with the Earth as opposed to an unrealised superficial connection of standing on the earth.
Another one was the experience of the Adi Guru area of the void actually physically rippling as the Kundalini came rushing up. This had me ruminating that the actual origins (like many things) of the belly dance may have actually been auspicious as opposed to its common modern portrayal.
thing is certain. Everything is in constant change of improvement. I
am not sure where this will go but I am enjoying the journey of
discovery that I suspect does not end but results in a better version
of me than the one the moment before.
Subject: Dragon Dance?!
At the beginning of Saturday's form I had the thought flow through me that following Sifu is like following a conductor in an orchestra. Then the thought came “Guys! Stay together”when it was clear that some were rushing way ahead. Eyes open or eyes closed? That is the question. If having difficulty following the flow should you shut your eyes? I don’t think so, if your internal concept is missing the point best open them and try to absorb.
Later, ¾ of the way through the form when the Chi was really flowing; I surrendered, closed my eyes and rechecked that all was ok, still at the right point. So then I completely surrendered and closed my eyes; I saw within and before my eyes and also felt the swirling, oscillating movements of what was either a very thick coiled snake-like body moving in thick circles, or was it the dragon!?
This movement was so ‘helter skelter’and seemed so internally fast but outer expression was still at same speed as the rest of the class. It was a completely startling experience, a bit akin to an internal roller coaster ride.
Recently saw a photo of two elephants playing/wrestling with their trunks entwined, The top of their trunks was the similar texture and thickness of that internal vision. Go Figure!!?
Sun, 25 Sep 2011 20:53:46 -0700 (PDT)
Saturday, June 13, 2009 11:42 PM
Tai-Chi with Ric Lum one year ago. After doing Judo for 33
years and a variety of other sports including long distance
running I found that physically nothing was improving with
regards to flexibility and old injuries. I started looking
for something that would complement Sahaja Yoga, the
vibrations and spiritual growth but from the physical side.
I knew nothing like this existed but did try to find it in
the gentle way of Judo. The club I was at had practitioners
regularly suffering from injuries that seemed second only to
that sustained in car crashes.
One of the most
profound experiences was that of experiencing becoming aware
of moving the feet very lightly and gently on the living,
loving, supporting Mother earth.
daughter at ISPS had suffered from debilitating knee pains
since the age of two and were not abating at 10 years of age
(to the point of not sleeping due to the agony) No doctors
could fix it and one podiatrist/orthotics specialist wanted
$500 for an insert which she would need for the rest of her
life without any cure possible for what she perceived the
problem to be.
hmmm...out of context it seems to lose its essence. trying to recall..
At the beginning of the whole form heard Ric say "don't lead the leader" to someone. The internal response was to completely surrender to following the person in the vision at any given moment basically giving up any self responsibility for the part in the flow.
During the 'grasp birds tail' there was a 'burble' in the flow of the group and found myself experiencing the internal equivalent of a collision in a bumper car- bouncing between the balance point of complete surrender to the external and following internal knowledge. The result was like an internal wake up shake to keep attention internally as well as externally. To take some responsibility as well as to surrender. A balance point.